Brittain, Vera, Diary, 22 August 1915

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Diary of Vera Brittain

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Case Study: 
From Youth to Experience: Vera Brittain’s Work for Peace in Two World Wars
Creator: 
Brittain, Vera
Source: 
diary
Date: 
22 August 1915
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Contributer: 
McMaster University Libraries
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Vera Brittain estate; McMaster University has a non-exclusive licence to publish this document.

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eng
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tempted, some are to be trusted - at any rate one is. Oh! I felt so alive...
As we reached the house and passed through the dark garden he quoted to me in the low voice striving to be matter-of-fact and not quite succeeding, which always means his emotion is deeply stirred, Kathleen Coates little poem "A Year & a Day" -- halting a bit occasionally when he could not quite remember how the lines went --:
"I shall remember miraculous things you said
My whole life through --
Things to go unforgotten till I am dead --
But the hundredfold, adorable ways of you,
The tilt of your chin for laughter; the turn of your head
That I loved, that I knew --
Oh! While I fed on the dreams of them, these have fled!
"Words which no time can touch are life's refrain,
But each picture flies.
All that was left to hold till I meet you again,
Your mouth's deep curve, yours knows where the shadow lies,
These are the things I strive to capture in vain --
And I have forgotten your eyes,
And the way that your hair spun curls in the beating of the rain."
It applied so very exactly to us both. When we are apart, try as I will, I can never recall his face, or even hear in memory the sound of his voice. And he says he can never remember what I look like except as the merest vague shadow of what I am. Sometimes I think that if by closing my eyes or sitting in the dark I could picture again his face as it was when I last saw it, or in imagination listen to his voice, it would be less hard to be apart.
Supper was rather a quiet meal. Roland